Chapter Five:
Conversations with Radomir
Soon, Veliyar and his wife left the community altogether. He thought that along with him other community members would follow, but it turned out that he had expelled only himself.
These were not easy times for the people of the community.
Rada was worried about the departure of Veliyar, feeling like it was a great disaster. Although Blagoslav told her that this was a relief and one should rejoice that Veliyar walked out by his own will. This way, it was not necessary to expel him.
Rada after also talked much with Radomir. Her father praised her:
“Well done, my daughter! You spoke well before the people: you were not afraid to say words from God!”
“How can they be — from God?”
“That’s how it happened: God — through you — spoke, my daughter! And from now on, you will learn how to distinguish the Voice of God in yourself!”
“It’s possible that I did say something, and maybe I even actually did… But what was the point of it?
“Too many things in our community have now become different…
“For example, Veliyar and his wife have left…
“Many people are afraid of my grandfather. They listen, but they themselves do not agree with everything, they think differently… Veliyar — he was not afraid to talk about what he thinks against grandfather, but the anger in him grew, and everything has ended in such a way that I cannot even imagine anything worse…”
“Why do you think that it has ended badly? A lot of people have understood much due to this event! And the lost sensation of always feeling the Presence of God in their lives — they have begun to resurrect! It’s not enough just to remember this, but everyone should feel God by one’s heart, by the soul — and live so constantly!
“And people cannot be driven into the Divine Abode by bondage! Everyone has one’s own fire in the soul! Such a fire of love can be united with the Divine Universal Fire!
“As long as personal desires are the main rulers of the soul, while self-conceit obscures the understanding of the Divine Will, — that means that such a person is not yet ready to live in Divine Unity!
“… How would you manage the community? What are your thoughts on this?”
“To manage the community — I could not… But I would like to live like You, helping people, and teaching about what I know… Grandfather used to live like that… But now…”
“But now — what? Is God not around?
“In yourself, my daughter, you have to look for the solutions of problems! Maybe, it would be good if you always shine like a sun — in your heart! And — for all the people you would be an example for imitation in the desire to connect one’s life with the Divine Life!”
“I try, but I cannot always do this…
“Why is it that sometimes, suddenly, it becomes so empty in the soul? I sometimes think that I forgot how to be happy, how to rejoice… I do what I must, but there is no joy in it… It’s like I have grown old before my time! It’s as if I live in captivity! Like a birch, which is rooted to the ground and cannot escape from the place on which it grew…
“I need You to be close!”
“But I’m always near!”
“I know this… But it’s not the same as before, when we were near each other with our bodies…
“You helped, taught, and healed people… And I? I’m learning from my grandfather, it seems it’s necessary, but nobody needs what I now know!…
“It would be a great joy — to help someone, even just a little bit!…
“Do you understand? — no one needs this life of mine! And how can I change this?
“I had thought for a while that if I would love anyone, I’d marry, and I’d give birth to children, then, at least, I would teach them…”
“Well, daughter, does no one take your hand in marriage?”
“No, many would be happy, they were delighted with me… But the heart does not love any of them… And without this — all that makes no sense…
“Can you please ask grandfather to let me heal people in the villages?”
“I’ll try.
“And you — try to always have joy in the soul: that joy which does not come from an outside source, but is born inside of you and spreads from the spiritual heart!
“You can do it, but you do not always live so! Now you should try to cognize how this joy of yours can help everyone around you to survive in such harsh times!
“You yourself said that when you feel the Father-Svarog, there is no limit to your happiness!”
“Yes, that’s true! You’re right! But this is just not enough to enable me to live this way all the time!… When the meditation ends, in which I was in Mergence with God, — it’s as if the sun, with which I was shining, is shielded by a cloud — and everything becomes gray and sad around…”
“You said that a birch tree cannot escape from the place where it grew up…
“So, use that birch as an example! In that place, where God decided to put the birch, it grows, gives away all of its beauty and love and fills the air with its own breathing, this air brings health and strength to all around!
“And if no one admires it, then this does not stop the birch from giving away its beauty and love to the world of God!
“Yes, there are such difficult times of our lives, when it is difficult to find external sources of joy. And when all events are not as we would like… In such spaces of time, you can learn to very deeply connect yourself — as a soul — with God! It is necessary not only to seek for oneself peace and protection in His Love and Infinite Power, by cognizing Him — the Great, the One, the Endless. But we must begin to radiate His Love! In the gray darkness that has thickened around — you can shine like a sun, even if it is just a small one! To this sun, God gives His Power — to shine!
“Such a life with God can transform the energies of sadness — into the radiance of love or into a gentle calm-caress. Try it! If thoughts of sadness prevail — do not just hide them in yourself or drive them away, but rather transform them into love!
“Do you remember? — Grandfather taught you how to dance in the morning: how to greet the sun, how to greet the world with sunny joy! You know — how! And why do you not do it yourself every day?…
“Begin every morning — with the sunrise dancing in the soul!
“The heart, united with the Divine Love, can shine like the Sun!
“If you have cleared within the body and soul the space for God, and if your love for God is strong and pure — then God fills your spiritual heart! Streams of the Divine Light, like streams of a fountain, can then pour through your hands! Your love and God’s Love unite in your spiritual heart — and, having been merged, they can flow, shine, and radiate!
“Grandfather taught you to meet the sunrise like this in the morning.
“But it is important that the Sun of Divine Love rises inside, in you! And not only at the dawn in the morning it can and must shine! This state must be very firmly connected with oneself-soul within the spiritual heart! Give your heart to God — so that He may shine, love, and create through you!
“Cognize that such a flow of your love, connected with God’s Love, can flow from above or below, forwards from behind, or vice versa, backwards! Learn to direct such flows! Let them stream in all directions at the same time or assemble into a directed Ray! So that — through your body and you as a soul — the Love of God may illuminate this world!
“Learn to pass such Flows through your hands! Then — it will be easy for Me to teach you further!
“Learn to live as a soul that is a huge and free from the body!
“You are used to seeing Me in a small Appearance. But look:”
Radomir showed Rada that the whole space above the surface of the Earth and below it — for huge distances — is enveloped with His Light and Love.
“Well, hug all of Me!”
Rada tried — and understood how small she still is: she could not envelop all that Light of Radomir, and could not sink to the bottom of those Depths that He could reveal!
“So, do you see? And you say that you are bored and sad to live, having nothing to do! When, instead, you should learn — while there is time for this!
“Learn to give to all the space around — the harmony, which, in Union with God, you are cognizing yourself! It must always be so, no matter what you do! Even if you are just traveling somewhere, or you are conversing with someone, or you are admiring the beauty of nature, or you are cooking porridge — all this can be illuminated with God’s Light that burns in you-soul!
“It is necessary to offer an opportunity for God to show for people and all beings His Love-Tenderness — through yourself, with yourself! This is how a soul gets Oneness with God!
“And then, you will be able to learn to see, hear, and help people, and prompt to them true decisions — no matter how far away they are!
“Why did you learn to feel the hands of the soul, if these hands are idle now, even though they could become all-embracing? Why did you study to see and warm all beings with the Ray of God’s Love, if now you forget to do this work? Even though the benefit of your work is not great so far, this is not an excuse for spiritual idleness, saying: ‘I still am not able to do much!’”
“But one does not even need a body for such help! You can do it even better now!”
“But, if I can do it better, does this then mean that you should not even try to master it?
“No, that wouldn’t be right!
“And your hour will come, do not rush! Learn — while there is time! But do not waste it in vain!”
… Afterwards, Radomir also had a conversation with Blagoslav.
Blagoslav tried to appear unaffected in public, but what had happened in the community — was hard for him. He felt his guilt.
Radomir was easily perceived by him. He also easily understood what was going to be discussed.
Radomir started:
“Father, weaken your will by which you hold the community! This has become nothing more than an obedience to you!”
“Do you want everyone to defect like Veliyar, who wanted to live by his own free will? No! I will save the community!”
“Don’t get upset!… Do you remember how you taught me as a child — to ride a horse? You talked about how to get along in harmony with the horse:
‘If the rider weakens his will completely and allows the horse to command — it’s worthless!
‘If the horseman only imposes his will and does not feel his horse, it is also worthless: the horse wants to be not a slave, but a friend! And the one who is in slavery — will betray in a difficult moment!
‘One needs to make a horse a friend, to learn to feel it as oneself — to feel every step that it takes, every leap!
‘If the fear of a fiery obstacle or a jump from a height arises in a horse, then an able rider can preempt this fear with his will! One needs to unite the horse’s strength and one’s own strength! It is necessary to unite the will of the horse and the will of the rider!
‘Then such a horse will be a friend: it will not fail both in battle and on the road, it will bear a wounded-insensitive rider from misfortune!’”
“Look at you! You are now without a body — but you still remember!…”
“I remember, father! I remember that because you taught Me wisely! But now, feel that you turn our people into slaves…
“But people are not dumb animals! Every man is endowed — by God! — with free will! Therefore, when people are deprived of freedom, the feelings of protest grow in them!
“Even difficult and unpleasant work can be done joyfully, if it is done by one’s own will! But, if it is done by coercion, without internal consent — then the work as if becomes slave labor!
“When the understanding of the need for a task is realized by a person, then joy accompanies him or her both in spiritual deeds and secular ones, large and small, daily and hourly!
“But in captivity, even free birds do not sing! Love dies in them! And in people — so much more so!
“And Rada can also be extinguished if you do not support her aspirations for God, if her desire to help people is always suppressed!
“Even she, though she is not afraid, but loves you, but, in fact, she also feels distress from your sternness!”
“But what is her grief?”
“Here’s an example: she sewed for you a shirt and embroidered it, but you did not even try it on!”
“But my old shirt — it still fits!…”
“Yes, it does. But your granddaughter became sad, because you were not pleased!… It is just a trifle, of course. She has long since forgotten about it. But from the little things, much in our lives is formed. She is doing all the good that she can for you, and she is trying to display love, but you — in exchange, take all the good from her and only draw attention to drawbacks — and scold her… She does not have enough love! She needs, at least, kind words from you!
“And people in the community have already forgotten when your smile was last seen!”
“What am I to them: a kind of buffoon?”
“No, father! But people have begun to live in fear of you! For their deeds, they wait not for God’s Opinion, but rather they are afraid of your displeasure! This is not good!”
“Yes… Everything is wrong now…”
“Fear destroys love!
“You yourself taught Me how the will of one person, fighting with the will of another person, — gradually destroys and violates the harmony in the space around.
“And you yourself explained how the combination of strength, good intentions, and united winds of love-creating — occurring simultaneously in many souls — multiplies force and energy for actions!
“You taught Me all this! And souls, united in love and work, — they become a great force! It is for this reason that people began to live in communities! And if God is the Chief in that unity — then, well, you yourself know!…
“You care about people, and about the community you live in. Through that — the giving of your love is accomplished. Through that, you yourself feel the benefit of your life in the Service for God. Understand how significant it is! Since our people do not have enough of the same thing!
“It is impossible — to only cultivate perfection for oneself, without ‘souring’, as a result, like cabbage soup, which no one has eaten for many days…
“You, father, compare others with yourself. But not everyone has as strong a love-aspiration for God as you do! God has not yet become so important to all of them that any test seems like a trifle!
“For this reason, people began to live in communities, because it is much easier to burn with love for God alongside others who are also flared up!
“If a campfire burns — then all the twigs and logs in it create a common flame. Just like this, the community should live!
“And if one makes a mess of a campfire, then one by one the twigs will only weakly smolder and die away soon. Maybe only the large logs will burn for a while, but they, too, will extinguish soon…
“Do you remember how in the past you would conduct common meditations? At that time, you helped everyone to feel the Unity in the Divine Light. Do you remember how you gave each person a spiritual assignment, and not just a material one? Can you revive this tradition for the people?”
… Ever since that conversation, Blagoslav changed in many ways. He both caressed Rada often, and began to manifest less austerity with the people, he also explained now: the reasons why he decided something in a certain way and for what it is needed.
He brought back the custom of common meditations. And the love for God and the love between people — strengthened.
Once again, peace and joy returned to the community.
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