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The Fakir and the Science of Miracles/Chapter Thirteen: When It’s Hard…

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Chapter Thirteen:
When It’s Hard…

As usual, Katya woke up early: before dawn. Over the past three years, she had become accustomed to harmonizing the mornings with the perception of God through morning meditations, in order to be filled with strength and joy for the whole day.

How easy it was just recently!…

But now… The memories of recent events were weighing down on her with nasty severity. After all, everything had collapsed so unexpectedly and so quickly: “Ram, our friend and teacher, is in prison!… We were left with almost no money in a foreign country and now do not know how to help Ram. We could find only one lawyer who agreed to defend Ram in court. But the amount that this person requested was huge. He said: ‘I understand that your friend is innocent, but you must also understand that, in defending him, I put my career and even my life in danger. Regardless of the decision of the court, I, as well as you, will need to quickly leave the country and start life in a new place and look for money! I can promise with an eighty percent certainty that I will win this case if it is open. But there still remains a twenty percent chance that they will simply crush us, not taking into account either facts or common sense. In this case, I would like to have a guarantee that I can leave the country without becoming a beggar. And you, too, must consider what you will do in this case.’”

Katya made an effort to drive away the overwhelming despair…

The cheap hotel room that they were renting was cold. Outside the window, there was a gray haze and rain… It was the end of autumn…

Katya started the fireplace. The uncomfortable room began to fill with warmth.

And in the same way that she was kindling a fire that gives light and warmth, she tried to kindle a shining sun with love in her spiritual heart, saying to herself: “There, on the street, above these gray clouds and rain — there is always sunlight! And God — He is everywhere and always! I already know this well! I have felt it many times! And God is Love!”

This dawn of love required considerable effort from Katya. After all, it is not easy to rejoice when there is no reason for joy, to be calm and loving, when all events are terrible and there is not even a ray of hope!…

Katya recalled all that Ram had taught them. The source of love in the depths of her spiritual heart began to radiate in all directions, illuminating the space around her body.

Katya continued to do the most ordinary things: she cooked breakfast and set the table… And from this heartfelt love, there flowed soft, ever-expanding Light: “We will not give up! We will stand strong in these difficulties! God exists! And right now, right here — I can feel His Love! I know how to soar in this Love of His, and how to give It to others! I can! Right now, I can be in Mergence with this Love — this caressing, tender, and infinite Love of God! I don’t know why we were given these tests, I don’t know what to do… But I know this Love of God! I trust His Love and merge with It!”

Katya felt that it worked! Peace and Radiance of the Divine Presence, emanating from the depths of her own spiritual heart, filled the room. She even thought that outside the window the rain had stopped and the sun began to shine. She went to the window, but there… gray streams of rain filled the space… The light that she saw around her was… not material.

Katya thought that it was Ram here. She saw his smiling face, consisting of Light, and heard the words: “Well done, Katya!”

Tom entered the room and tenderly embraced Katya, stroking her golden hair:

“What a hostess you have become, my girl!”

“Let’s do a ‘good day’ today, Tom, as you taught me as a child! It seems to me that exactly today everything will start to work out!”

“Yes, I even found something for this!”

Tom showed an announcement in the newspaper about a duel between two famous wrestlers.

“I know one of them. At one time, he was an athlete and a fighter in the circus, where I also performed. If he has not changed in recent years, then he will certainly help!”

“Will he lend us money? But how will we be able to pay him back?”

“He can help us, but not financially…”

“Have you ever helped him like that yourself?”

“Yes… But that is not important… He was always a person of great and selfless kindness! With this force, he even defeated opponents in the arena battle: without malice, without aggression. He seemed to drown them in his kindness — and then laid them on both shoulder blades.”

* * *

The day, in fact, was developing successfully. Even the sun began to break through the clouds. And the rain stopped.

Tom and Katya came to the arena, where the fight was supposed to take place, long before the start.

There were already a lot of people. Everyone was betting on which of the rivals would win this battle.

“This is a strange place!” — Katya said. — “Is it really pleasing to people to watch fights? Is guessing which of the wrestlers will win, really an honest way to make money?”

“Yes, people are very indiscriminate in what brings them satisfaction… Such is this world… There is a lot of evil in it, and good does not always win… But you and I are here to save Ram!

Let's get to it!”

… After Tom made some explanations to the guard, they were allowed into the room where the athlete was preparing for the fight.

Tom’s friend was a man with a powerful body and the gentle kindness of a huge soul. He met Tom and Katya cordially and immediately responded with a willingness to help:

“I don’t have too much money, friends: I never know how to manage my finances… But take this and bet! I will definitely win this fight! They say that my adversary is distinguished by meanness and cunning, which means that he is worth teaching a lesson! I’ll lay this villain on his shoulder blades, at least for you! And then the amount will be sufficient — and you will be able to do everything that you need!”

* * *

Tom and Katya had hoped to get the necessary funds, but now she was… wavering.

Katya doubtfully asked Tom:

“Are you sure that what we are doing is good? Are you sure Ram would approve of this?”

“Not sure… But this is a real chance. And we have to try!”

“And what will happen if your friend does not win this fight?”

“Then we will lose the money that he gave us — that he gave unselfishly, from a pure heart, to help us… We will lose, but it will not harm anyone.

I don’t see another way now…”

… Tom and Katya watched the wrestling match.

Katya had never seen such fights before. She wanted to close her eyes and not look at what was happening. But, even covering her face with her hands, she continued to see it with the soul…

It was a battle of an enormous good power combined with the body — against a force consisting of sticky black hatred…

These energies penetrated the fighters’ bodies during the fight, sometimes they mixed… It was scary to look at it!…

And the audience in the stands rejoiced, being delighted with the spectacle of such a fight…

Tom’s friend managed to win, but it came at a very high price. After the solemn presentation of the medal, he was taken to the hospital with broken ribs, barely standing on his feet, and almost dying.

Tom went with him… Of course, to even think of using the money now to save Ram, was out of the question…

Tom said:

“Katya, don’t worry: I have to stand on guard in the hospital and make sure everything is fine there. Perhaps I will need to remove those clots of hate energies that remained in the body of my friend after this battle, alongside the injuries. Then the body treatment will be more successful. Ram taught me a lot in order for me to restore the health of my own body. I’ll try now to help by using this same knowledge… I’ll probably return in the morning…

* * *

Katya walked slowly, trying to comprehend everything that had happened lately… Why rush to an empty hotel room where nobody is there and nobody needs you…?

She stopped at the circus building, where a poster maker ripped off old posters to stick new ones.

How recently they performed there so successfully… And now — the poster of their number was lying on the dirty pavement…

And again, Katya had to make effort after effort so that the Light in her heart would not go out, and so that love could flow and radiate…

At this time, a young man in an expensive coat and top hat stopped at the poster lying on the pavement and asked the poster maker:

“Tell me, is this young girl on the poster Mademoiselle Kitty?”

“I do not know. The Fakir Ra-Mak-Mey once performed here. However, a scandal arose from this performance and this man was arrested. The circus has left. Now other tours will come here.”

The poster maker pointed to the new poster. He finished sticking the poster and collected the scraps of the old posters to throw them in the trash can…

To Katya, that young man seemed familiar. And the words “Mademoiselle Kitty” sounded unexpectedly: after all, she had not been called by that name in the circus for several years.

The young man turned around and froze in joyful surprise:

“You…, are you… Katya? Mademoiselle, you probably do not remember me, but I am Alex… I am that boy who was in love with you, and with whom you managed to make a ‘holiday of good deeds’… I have been looking for you for a very long time! It is a miracle that we met!”